I feel so very blessed to have this divine being in my life who has the most remarkable will and unconditional love for me. She taught me that kind of love. Pebbles transitioned from her body on April 27, 2010 and she is still with me to this day. Sometimes I feel her more strongly than others. I sense that she is on her own journey, I feel that she has no barriers, and time and space are infinite. My Mother said something that struck me "She could be anywhere in the world, yet she chooses to be with you." She is not only my companion, but my spirit guide and guardian. She gives me gifts, comfort, signs, messages...and I believe she is not working alone. I've never been a religious person; considering myself more spiritual. I've always believed in God, yet my exposure to organized religions was very minimal most of my life. That did not stop me from believing. I felt a calling to learn more about religion and to incorporate it into my life; yet I felt I had no one to share it with and the timing was somehow never right. I know now that it's not about either of those things, it happens when it's meant to happen. During the time her health started to decline I went to church to pray for her; yet it started to take on a life of it's own and I felt a calling to be there, to open my eyes, lift the vail and expand my spirit. I've always considered myself a good person, but I wanted to be transformed by the Holy Spirit.
I prayed for her health relentlessy and never gave up, devoting my life to her care. I would do anything for her, sacrificing my time, money, sleep, you name it. What is remarkable to me, is that no matter how hard it was, even through the setbacks I never once faltered. I wouldn't give up on her. To this day I firmly believe that the greatest thing we can do is love sacrificially and unconditionally. That is what God teaches us, and I feel in my heart of hearts that it is rewarded. Life is not easy, suffering is a huge part of it, yet it's all meant for a reason. I felt that I could not be in a world without her; and I truly believe she would not still be with me if it were not for the grace of God. I would not be experiencing the blessing of the Afterlife with her. Within the first week of her passing, I consulted with Janet Dobbs @ Animal Paradise Communication and Healing. Janet came to my home and was very comforting. We both had something in common right away, in that we realized we were the only people we knew who wore crosses with our beloved animals fur contained in the locket. Janet mentioned a woman Deborah, who had experience communicating with spirits who have passed on, and she spoke extremely highly of her. At the time, I was eager to communicate with Pebbles as I was searching for comfort; yet it had only been a week since she transitoned. I had experienced "textbook" signs such as unexplained fur, sounds, scents, radio transmissions, phone static (while I was talking to another communicator about experiencing those signs!) as did my roomate Doris, however it was still early on and I was in the heaviest stages of grief. It didn't take much time at all however for Pebbles to make herself known to me in remarkable ways. At that point I contacted Janet again. She told me she had a feeling I would be calling for Deborah's number.
It was now just a few weeks later (mid May). Based on my experiences, it was very important for me to meet with someone who was genuine. I don't believe in consulting with clairvoyants or mediums; yet I was concerned about Pebbles well being and her reason for being here. I felt I needed answers. I was also juggling living my "normal life" and coming home to a "supernatural wonder that continued to unfold before my eyes at every turn." It was the most amazing feeling - to have that overwhelming sorrow lifted - and Pebbles was trying everything she could to do so. I was beyond elated to have her with me; yet awestruck at what was taking place. I knew my life would never be the same. Since my situation was *unique* as I like to put it (!) I had to be in the right hands and consult with someone who has "the gift" and is extremely intuitive and sensitive. Somehow I knew I was being guided to the right person. I met with Deborah for an hour and 1/2 and recorded the session. I shared all the pictures I had at the time and was amazed by the information she had for me from her spirit guides and from Pebbles. It was life changing. I will make reference to her a few times during this tour of photos, so I want to clarify my connection with her. I can truly say that God guided me to the right person. I have the utmost respect and trust for this amazing woman. Possibly one thing that stood out the most during our time, is that she attested to the remarkable will of Pebbles, and the fact that a higher being allowed for her to stay. Deborah said to me "It was only when *someone* told her she could stay, that she finally let go." When she had that assurance, she let her spirit leave her body... Deborah also went on to say "she couldn't believe how light it was, it was so easy (physically) to let go; she feels so free and light!" Her spirit was leaving a comprimised body could not live any further, and in the moment of passing she felt such a sense of relief, a weight had been removed. No longer was she housed in a dying physical body - she was free and limitless! How extraordinary to hear this, after having witnessed her body be crippled by disease, to watch her slowly slip away from me and to have my heart break with each passing day, yet never giving up, never losing hope... and now to know that she was free of that. She was free and able to stay with me... that is all I ever wanted yet did not dream it imaginable. Who would? I prayed for more time - a miracle... and I got it. I hope this provides some comfort to anyone who has lost someone they love so very dearly. The physical death is not the end. There are no goodbyes. Love never dies. I was right beside Pebbles when she transitioned, feeling a warmth and comfort I've never felt. I felt as if God, angels and guides formed a circle of love and protection around us; and the beauty is that I now know how it felt for her! Isn't that amazing! Is that what it's like? How could we ever know? I believe all of those people that have had near death and out of body experiences. There is a common thread to their recounts. It is truth. The physical death is nothing to fear. This experience has changed my life forever and my views on this life and the next. Sharing our story is part of my purpose in life. I have done so with many people close to me, yet I've barely tapped the surface. If I could reach out to the world and share this... only then would I feel my purpose has been completely fulfilled. With it comes responsibility. It can be a bit daunting as I know not everyone wants to hear it or believe it. It is the fear of the unknown, the things in life we do not have answers too. People need to have answers, explanations, facts, evidence and so on... Yet there is so much to life that we are not meant to explain away. There is so much more to our experience than what we've studied in books. Not everything has an answer. Yes, the mind is a terrible thing to waste, but what about the heart and the spirit? In a world where there is not enough goodness, hope, faith, belief, kindness, compassion, understanding, empathy, trust, promise of a bright future, but a certainty of an imminent death; and most importantly unconditional love... who wouldn't want the desire to believe there is more to life than this? The belief in miracles, guardian angels, love that never dies and a God who is a god of love that makes all of this possible? Who wouldn't want to believe it?
For many, seeing is believing. There is so much more to this story. Every picture in life has a story. Not only has this amazing being shown me herself in the afterlife, but I have also felt her on many occasions; kneeding, jumping, purring, cuddling up to me. Doris has seen her, Brian has felt her presence, I have seen her move objects and heard her as Doris has. I have also had many moments of feeling another energy, whether it be at home, or elsewhere, and it is a loving energy; much like what I felt at the moment she transitioned. An energy that I believe can only come from God, angels and the holy spirit. I believe Pebbles is also here as a messenger and I don't feel she is working alone. There have been signs and symbols in addition to seeing her that hold meaning and purpose. I feel very strongly, as Deborah attested, that she is not only my companion, but is now also serving as a guardian and spirit guide. I seem to feel her most when I am going through a trial or feeling down. She is there to comfort me during these times as well. In some of the photos to follow, she presents me with a fish, a standard looking fish. This is a gift, of course - a proud accomplishment for the feline community. One day I noticed another *gift* however this one was different in that it resembled a fish, but there was no definition in the features or a traditional fin. I shared the photo with Doris and she said it looked like an Ichthus. We went on-line to google a picture of it and sure enough... Icthus is the greek word meaning "fish." The symbol was used primarily amongst Christians of the early church years, and later used as a means of identifying or acknowledging a fellow believer in Christ without the need for any verbal communication being exchanged. In my photo collection I would say I've counted dozens having appeared on my floor. I stayed the night in Brian's guest room in August of 2010. When I awoke, the Ichthus symbol was in his carpet, right in front of the door to the room. I left early and text him to take a look. Sure enough - he saw it too. Brian and I attend church together and he has been with me every step of the way in this journey. It comes as no surprise then, that this would be on his floor. I am not one to see things that aren't there, not one to embellish a story or exaggerate on any level. I simply report and share what I see; what I feel. If I see a shape on a cushion that resembles a cross, I will share it. Who wouldn't want to believe that it is in fact a representation of a cross, yet only God knows the truth. I would never be so bold as to undeniably claim it as fact. That is not for me to say.
Before I present my collection of photos of Pebbles in the afterlife, I must give credit where credit is due; and I would not have been able to capture some of these pictures without the assistance of my cat Abbey. Abbey sees her. She was a strong guide for me in the beginning. I would watch her staring at *something* very intensely and I would aim my camera. This was quite an adjustment for her; can you imagine what she was thinking through all this!
Now, without further ado, I invite you to see a glimpse of Pebbles in the afterlife. None of these photos have been retouched. Some of them may appear sharper in person, which is the ideal fashion in which I can share them, however I am honored to be able to do so in any way I can. Yes, for some seeing is believing... Please continue on to see the wonder and beauty of this amazing being in the Afterlife....
This is my favorite picture of her while she was in her physical body. Those amazing eyes - she looked at me as if she was peering into my soul. I could never get anything past her; she never missed a beat...always sensing every thought and emotion behind it. The windows of a most beautiful soul and extraordinary spirit. I am so very blessed to have this divine being in my life who has the most remarkable will and unconditional love for me. She taught me that kind of love.
This is my favorite picture of her while she was in her physical body. Those amazing eyes - she looked at me as if she was peering into my soul. I could never get anything past her; she never missed a beat...always sensing every thought and emotion behind it. The windows of a most beautiful soul and extraordinary spirit. I am so very blessed to have this divine being in my life who has the most remarkable will and unconditional love for me. She taught me that kind of love.
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